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Caoimhe daughter of Emer. ([personal profile] amhran) wrote in [community profile] midnightsnacc2023-08-17 05:37 pm

Closet the Distance.

[ CLOSED RP ] In which Caoimhe and Dimitri find themselves stuck in a .... Predicament.
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[personal profile] frenziedazure 2023-08-17 10:06 pm (UTC)(link)
I understand that it was an accident despite this. (Of course he couldn't quite move or anything much, setting down the books his monstrous strength has hold of would have to come about slowly in addition to removing anything he is shouldering but he thought it best if he did such things with enough care knowing a lot of this seems old. He rather not accidentally ruin old novels, research, whatever have you of these books by breaking them with his bare hands. Likely a good thing he chose to forgo armor for something simple, a linen tunic and simple trousers to go with boots he wore. He isn't necessarily complaining much but it was only when she moved he realized a problem.

A rather large problem: he's feeling her grinding, thoughts that only a young man surface only to be forced down as he makes himself imagine anything but an attractive young woman grinding into him. One attempt was imagining a disgruntled Dedue's face as he stared in horror over Dimitri eating Flayn's cooking without reacting to it due to knowing his unique circumstances with taste. Another was imagining Ingrid hitting him the way she does Sylvain were he to open his mouth.

So far it's....working, enough. Enough to make it so he won't have an accident and wind up making this a bigger mess as his flustered cheeks grow redder. It isn't long before he manages to set aside books he caught and removed the wood across his shoulders after waiting for her to stop moving. Goddess, he felt as if he was in the middle of erotica he read once out of curiosity reasons due to hearing the others speak of it. Let it be known that he immediately closed it, too.)
P-perhaps I should do it? But the issue is if I were to break the door replacing it would be troublesome.... (And he'd much prefer to not burden them over the unfortunate side effect of his strength.)

Curses....one of the times I do wish that I could control it better.

(But he can worry about his woes of having immense strength some other time once his eye settles on the ceiling to make himself calm again. The thoughts are still there, not as big as they were earlier but it is quite troublesome that they're....this close and he would much prefer to behave instead of breaking the door in other means or walls. Or even the shelves.

Sylvain is going to never let him live this down and will likely laugh until the day he dies: Goddess the thought of that is already more than enough to force down thoughts of a hormonal adult young man, anyway.)
Edited 2023-08-17 22:06 (UTC)
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[personal profile] frenziedazure 2023-08-17 10:42 pm (UTC)(link)
R-right, I would much prefer to not make this any more difficult than it has to be.

(Easy. He thinks to himself, attempts at fighting down the urge of youth spent not seeking or searching for the warmth of another is difficult and she's surely making it unintentionally harder than it must. He's not wanting to make his urges apparent, not whenever it's much more noticeable on someone like him whenever he has the misfortune of realizing that about her body; not an ample bosom perhaps but thick and supple thighs met by his own body which was sculpted by war.

His own body if she pays any attention to it is built, thick with muscle along his own thighs and shins. Built with enough power in them he could surely lift some of the most heaviest of objects or plant himself firmly to become an unmovable object.

Though that's not what they're being used for currently; he likely looked like a mess in his own way with that blonde mane he calls his hair strewn about from his messy ponytail being lost, his shirt pulled about from the movement to near reveal his shoulders and the scars they carry themselves down to his abdominal area to show sculpted abs.

Goddess, grant him strength, since he's already struggling in trying not to lose control of such idle thoughts that would land them in more trouble.)
I-I....believe it should be? Hopefully.

(As he's silently cursing whoever thought it funny to play such a joke upon them and attempting to not stare too much at certain parts. An attractive woman, beautiful, he can say that even if he is trying to not be uncouth in his actions with him assisting however he can with each book taken over.)

I do apologize for startling you. (Talk, talk, talk. He has to speak and focus on that, were he to allow the thoughts out that wouldn't look good. Though it isn't helping he looks almost as if he got carried away with her in there instead of just rose from the comforts of his bed.)

S-should we prepare in case if we're here for awhile?
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[personal profile] frenziedazure 2023-08-17 11:09 pm (UTC)(link)
(Goddess above, save this poor wretched soul. His thoughts are plenty, going about toward things less than innocent with forced thoughts to keep it from going there. Forcing it toward other things is working though he knows he finds himself almost wondering if this is a trial the Goddess herself is forcing him through now for whatever reason after he had long since dealt with many of them throughout his difficult life.

He finds himself trying to not drift toward something she herself would not want.

He even did notice she seems shy, something which causes the flush upon his features to grow knowing that he thinks he can't help but bring himself to stare at her in all her beauty. With a softness akin to interest without knowing as they're held together in this small closet; he's attempting to ignore her noises for his own sanity but he knows not how long he can hold strong for with this already weakening his attempts at doing so in varying degrees.

The thoughts aside, he tries to not tense at the sensation of her grinding into his groin again. This time with more purpose behind it as he tries to keep his head together; damn it, but he has to behave and knows it. Whatever emotions, connection he feels, he doesn't want to let it be destroyed by whims that may not even be wanted from both sides.

So he near tenses again after she grinds into him, unintentionally again, with the book she took in hand. He's not speaking again yet but he finds himself pulling his thoughts together first; it wasn't difficult to do even with him resisting the urge to take things into an unwanted turn for the two of them.)
I suppose I can sit somewhere to provide more room as needed first? I know I am quite....tall, that it can be a disaster were I to move too much. (And it's best the smaller of them, her, has plenty of room in the event that they're trapped there for awhile. She'd be able to obtain help better: breaking the door will be the last option they use if necessary knowing he can do this quite easily.)

If it comes to us breaking the door, I'll personally replace it.

(It'd be his responsibility anyway, he didn't want her to deal with repercussions over his own strength.)
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[personal profile] frenziedazure 2023-08-17 11:51 pm (UTC)(link)
(The sight of it, of her before him with them close together as her hand touches upon the scar across his chest; his heart which nearly had been taken from him. It thrums fast within his chest, the closeness and her scent floods him with every part of her warmth from their being near. He smells of snow, of rough winds, mountain air, and chamomile. Sweet yet mixed into something so unusual for a man from a land so hardened by struggle yet held together by shared wants and hearts driving them to live, to struggle evermore no matter their circumstance within Faerghus for the sake of their bright king who works his hardest.

All for Faerghus, for them. He speaks not a word as she talks and sees it, how he almost died once during his time on the run.

But the words? They do not register just yet.

No, it's her scent and her warmth that registers; of their faces close together with him near feeling mesmerized. Close, close enough he's leaned down for her gently into her hand without so much as another thought against it. His earlier worries seemingly faded as he pulls back against any other urges that would be seen as wanton and uncouth. It's only after a minute he realizes she asked something, that she had wondered about that scar.)
I should be.... (He murmurs it softly, almost as if he wasn't there but is there with where his thoughts point his mind toward.

Like it felt need to compromise in how it wants.

There were many who tried, many who failed, they sought him for his throne so he rejected them and carried onward. He seeks love, not to be used again, he seeks companionship, not to be thrown to the wolves once more. And....scarily so, he finds himself so comfortable in his want that he looks at her with emotions he long since thought he would keep close to his heart out of a desire for him to not be hurt in such ways again.

Even as his arms find themselves loosely holding her on instinct.)
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[personal profile] frenziedazure 2023-08-18 12:23 am (UTC)(link)
(The scent he memorizes is something he thinks he'll never forget even were they to be forced apart though some part of his heart tightens within his chest at the idea. The warmth of it, the forest and ocean he takes in without a wish to ever let go of such imagery before he feels her hand making it's way toward his neck first before settling against his cheek. He leans gently into it; quiet as ever with him relaxing as she speaks up upon deciding that she did deserve the right to see it.

Though his eye is scarred and blind, he hides it for the sake of others not feeling uncomfortable even if it wasn't that bad off. Not anymore than it could be.

He's quiet. But he nods, the intensity of mutual feelings seems there as unaware as they both are about the line they are so delicately on.)
....you may, Caoimhe. (He'll show her his eye then, like the clouded sky that it can be compared to in a difference to his own remaining sky blue one that looks deep into her own. They aren't their roles here. Not a single bit in how they find themselves no longer paying attention to reality nor to the fact they're locked away in such a small space that they cannot say they'd be found in so easily.

The eye beneath the thumb she presses slightly against is closed; but for a moment flutters partly against it from beneath the thick leather of it. With scars exposed and rough skin before her eyes, he waits, once the eyepatch is removed he slowly opens the eye beneath it. Murky and blind. The lid of it scarred down to his cheek though just enough that the eyepatch itself had covered it. Both eyes now were upon hers, clouded sky and blue sky itself without him daring pull away.

He stayed.

If they lean any closer, nearer, could he control himself? Would he be able to if she wants that? He isn't going to overstep such boundaries no matter how much his heart drums louder, faster, wanting and craving. He assumes that for now were they to cross the line that he'd want it to be mutual; he wants her comfortable too, as he begins now to think he should go about this with enough care knowing his inexperience in such things that isn't from books he once read in his youth.)


....how does it look then, if I may ask?
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[personal profile] frenziedazure 2023-08-18 01:14 am (UTC)(link)
(As the words she speaks sweetly flows off her tongue, he finds himself filled with thoughts of her kiss, her soft lips near his eye which closes again for the time being. He takes in all of it, down to him feeling the dam he uses to withhold bending to desires that seek to chase without knowing how far or how true his heart is outside of an inkling that he held something deeper toward her. Not lust, something stronger as he looks once more at her with both eyes after it.

During the pause his breath is warm, soft against her own lips as troublesome thoughts fade to a nothingness he never knew the likes of upon feeling the river of her heart flood his own. Her point was made, the feelings she wished to give him through it once he notices something he never thought would dare happen, had happened.

Her kiss, soft lips against his where his own soon melts sweetly against her own so naturally. He melts, fades, allows this silent song to take him to her and her heart; he bends, he lets the dam be flooded so easily like she was a missing piece to it where he clings to her now. Strength put into his arms just enough to let her know he heard it, he feels it, he won't dare let go of her words given to him the way she had down to their silent yet quiet moment in this closet.

What had he done to deserve something so sweet, so precious, knowing his struggles and his want to live and be freed of the voices that plagued him down to his fears and his guilt. What had he done, dear Goddess, to find someone that near makes him feel as if his sins were absolved in just a kiss shared between them?

In warmth flooding him as he collapses in a figurative sense.

His inner turmoil, the struggles, perhaps now it meant something. Perhaps now it feels as if it led him to this moment and their meeting. He isn't sure, Dimitri never would be sure no matter how much he asked his Goddess if his life was a test, a misery filled test which pushed him down further and further to the point he near completely broke. It all feels so far away just melting down to his heart, his heart that beats loudly and seeks hers.

She wants it, she has it if she so wishes.

So she may take it, take the part of him that had long since been battered, destroyed, and thrown about like it's struggle was meaningless. Like nothing would wait at the end of it for him.

Melt, take it, come undone, as long as it's her is what it tells him then surely it will all be fine.)
Edited 2023-08-18 01:16 (UTC)
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[personal profile] frenziedazure 2023-08-18 01:49 am (UTC)(link)
(For that moment she tells him to pause, he stops, he's listening thankfully even as he feels he cannot deny how she tastes as tempting him further. At least how he imagines her taste would be based off of her scent with growing and gnawing heat between them though he will not press onward if she does not want him to. A gentleman no matter how much he wants to melt, that much is for certain whenever he breathes. Tries to catch his own breath whilst she turns away. Temptation really had gripped upon him for that moment and he near wonders if he should apologize for doing such a thing to her that seemingly might be against what she desired.

Then again it cracked his walls so thoroughly, who knows, he thinks just what may happen to them in this enclosed space with eyes lost within the others own. Dimitri if anything can take a hint if she chooses to push him away though he keeps his loose hold on her with enough care should she also choose to move away fully from his arms with the way they rest upon her back.)


....too much?

(It's a question he knows he should ask, there's no need for them to rush into intimacy if they both found in one another a missing part of themselves that they never once thought could be found. He won't rush it for her sake, out of respect knowing that similarly he didn't completely have experience either. Not unless secondhand embarrassment from Sylvain counted in an attempt to help his long time friend knowing that many would be eyeing him like vultures and snakes.

Likely a good thing he did that.)
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[personal profile] frenziedazure 2023-08-18 02:51 am (UTC)(link)
(She second guesses herself on that? He near wants to start singing his own words as much as it would be off-key about it. He'd even dance for her no matter how poorly he may do at such things with a want to let her know, feel, that she is every bit fine with it being her. He doesn't kiss just anyone, hadn't no less.) ....it is Caoimhe, it is not as if I do this with ill intent, you're the only woman I have kissed. (Truthful in his words, the intense emotions across their eyes in his answer, he means that. No other woman has kissed him.

No other woman has laid hands on him either; not in this way of sweet tender fancies and love gradually radiating though they know not of it being love. It felt so addictive, so sweet he found himself craving for more of her lips. If it went further he'd have to watch at most the cramp space they have and to not do anything foolish like near break a wall or a bookshelf from it.

His sky colored eyes hold in them care, trust, and that foreign sense of love within them as he gently or as gently as he could manage, clings to her in this moment of them alone.)
If anything I thought I'd be the more anxious one knowing I tend to argue with myself often on if I deserve something. (A small joke, something to help ease the tension even at his own expense.)
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[personal profile] frenziedazure 2023-08-18 04:43 am (UTC)(link)
Caoimhe, I am not interested in this for politics. (Because he despised the idea of marrying out of political favors instead of love. His father married out of love; Dimitri himself seeks to do the same just as he had done twice with his mother before her passing and with later on Edelgard's own mother who he took after in his kindness no matter how much she missed her poor daughter. He didn't seek this to chase others, he only chose one, needs one within his life if it were to happen and thus far it felt as if it would be....her, always.)

If I choose someone, it is because I wish to. I care little for those who want to use me or to have the crown for themselves, I do not desire a life without love. A marriage without it, too. I seek days of love, of comforts between me and who I want most. (He knows of their polygamy but it was not what he sought either. Just one in his heart forever, until he draws his last breath.

This wasn't political courtship but something he wishes for, longs most for just as she seemingly wants by her reactions. He doesn't pull away nor does he push her aside, instead his arms firmly no matter his strength rest around her to pull her close to his warmth and body. No disappointment, not a sign of him regretting giving her his lips and his first ever kiss. Just a softness that only a tortured man could give; care that one could give too, far more than some would dare think of from a man who had lost his mind for five years.

Who had strength uncontrollable more than ever once he makes up his mind. It will be her. He may not be good at this but he says and thinks to himself that it will be her who he pursues, who he longs for knowing his heart feels so similar to his own thoughts as of now. That his warmth wants her too knowing how she fits so comfortably within strong arms that could kill so easily were he to squeeze them around any other person.

But not her.

Dimitri wouldn't dare hurt her that way. Not intentionally, perhaps unintentionally though he'd listen if she needs him to ease up is something else he decides. He can do that much for Caoimhe, to learn to control it for these moments of precious time spent hidden away from the world which often times sought to cruelly snuff out his flame.)
Edited 2023-08-18 04:43 (UTC)
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[personal profile] frenziedazure 2023-08-18 05:46 am (UTC)(link)
(He knows it's quite the jump, but he did intend to court her and perhaps see if that was where it went. To see if she wanted his heart just as much as he may perhaps want hers as they sit together. He almost wonders if he spoke too boldly once her words softly come out into his ear, flushed cheeks and want aside, he already feels almost like he did something completely wonderful in his earnest admission that he would love to court her and to be together with her. To spend his nights and days with her, his moments of joy and sorrow.

There would be no greater joy than that, to have her with him in his life together with her. To give unto her the love she so rightfully deserves and to receive the love she wishes to give him, too.

Her lips soon brushing against his jaw causes the red shading his cheeks to grow, softness in his expression mixed with the feelings he tried to keep at bay just enough before he feels relief. They feel similarly in the regard of wanting perhaps something more as they explore together their hearts, so of course he'd desire to give her his utmost feelings and memories, dreams too. He knows she'll worry if he said nothing of his nightmares to her later on as is so that he plans to do.

Not now, obviously, now he wanted to take this sweet moment for what it was.)


....of course, you are strong in your own way, Caoimhe, never forget that. Strength comes in other forms, your heart and your light? It is one of the most beautiful parts of you that I'll always want to keep safe. (Something Dimitri would always do, the words come softly in response to her own. He hadn't said it officially yet but it is something akin to love; something that feels so close to it but he did mean every bit of it.

He would have spoke further, sang a song of words he felt truly about her own strength in her own ways but that was silenced by the sweet yet passionate kiss between them. Messy, clumsy, but still trying nonetheless and welcomed. Because he wouldn't have it any other way no matter their inexperience; given time they'll learn as they learn now to let their hearts seek one another.)
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[personal profile] frenziedazure 2023-08-18 10:55 pm (UTC)(link)
(It's not easy to breathe, to calm oneself down in this moment together as he finds he cannot stop his heart from pounding. They're alone together making it thus far near impossible to begin with; were they more likely to be found he does not know if they'd lose themselves so easily. Then again, what he does know now is that he thinks he still would have gradually begun to fall apart regardless of when or where. That's how he's always been when it comes to his heart. Even as he notices her own desire once his lips part just enough for her to obtain the taste she so craves.

Really he hadn't expected any of it to go this direction but he isn't hating it with him holding her closely in his own way, arms around her just tight enough she can feel his strength once they part again for now. He hadn't expected to be pushed down like this in the frenzy, either, nor had he realized until then he likes the thought of her gripping on to him the way she was down to his blonde mane and body in general.

Another weakness seemingly is his neck too in how he shivers at her hands moving tenderly upon it: his body reacts to her so naturally already though he holds himself back from seeking anything further than their closeness, the feeling of her lips and them together in such a way. Mostly from him not being certain on if a cramped space would be able to give them enough room, a curse of him being so tall and built, he muses a little.

Though for how long it'll stay that way is uncertain knowing he's already revealed he'd like to court her.)
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[personal profile] frenziedazure 2023-08-21 07:53 am (UTC)(link)
(He hadn't realized just how lost they were getting, sensations he never once dared dream of played about his body in the heat shared between them: within her burying into him as if he were a pillar or something there to hold her within his arms without a word from his lips. He drifts further, further into this warm feeling and near finds himself groaning quietly at the feeling of her hands upon the roughness of his body. The soft contrast of them enough to make him melt from her fingertips tracing along muscle to memorize it.

Strength upon strength sits in those arms and yet he holds her so near he feels every part of her pressed into him.

The whisper of his name on her lips could send him to his knees alone, he starts to think, in how sweet it comes from her. He's happy. Happy in ways he never thought he could be in how he responds to the affection given to him and in how he finds himself falling deeper until the cool sensation of his shirt falling upon his shoulders to reveal his pectorals somewhat more by the time she parts. The scars in sight too, as he blinks.

The small realization of what just happened sinks in as they breathe and part; he even notices how much of a mess she is with him feeling similarly as heat rises to his cheeks. Goddess, he hadn't realized he was gripping her hard enough that her dress near came off from the sudden force of it. Although the fervent kisses had left bruises upon his lips that he doubts will go away any time soon.)
N-no, I believe I got carried away all the same, too....had we not stopped I think if one regret came about it would be pressing toward a certain point in this closet. (Even if that side of him with such intense cravings for more is crying in agony that he isn't doing anything about it. No. He would respect that part of him that wants it to be somewhere more suitable with a feeling it is a mutual thought.

A bed would be better for them, a bed where they could be alone.

If it were anywhere else he'd much rather it be somewhere more romantic, however, not somewhere like this or somewhere that could likely end in him being gutted because they were discovered and it wasn't in a good way either.)
I....not that I do not want to go that far when you are comfortable, I just would much rather it be somewhere more comfortable for the two of us, of course. (Best to clarify that point, first, before any assumptions arise about what he meant.)
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[personal profile] frenziedazure 2023-08-22 11:26 pm (UTC)(link)
....I don't suppose there's a way of alerting them as to what happened, is there? (Preferably without an incident arising but he cannot say that, obviously he'll apologize for their....current state knowing that it isn't exactly a good look for them to look like this even if he hadn't noticed his own state of dress just yet as being quite similar. For now he lets the tension in his shoulders ease, eyes on her gently as ever once she positions herself to sit more comfortably in his lap.

He can manage this, he thinks, allowing her to be buried into him like that if she so needs before he shifts with enough care to give her the space needed for herself and to stay near for her sake, too, knowing their recent discoveries a little in this moment.)
If I could somehow alert Dedue since I know he must be nearby, it'd help, knowing him he worries quickly if I am gone without warning. (With the number of times he's given him a heart attack just about, that is truly understandable.)